12 December 2007

Genesis

where do all these come from?

when you start to realise that
everything you've probably stood for
starts to fall apart, can you stop it?

the future was never written in stone,
or was it?

come to think about it, you've always
wanted to be a free man,
and a free man always have choices.

you may have wanted to avoid certain
things. but your destiny seems to say
otherwise. what's destiny?

when you say you have no choice,
is it real? you always have choices,
even when at gunpoint,
you can say, "shoot me"
but you chose to follow orders.

your destiny is not decided,
people can always change the course
of events, people can always decide.

but then, most of us screw up anyway.

(thick brown wrappings of tobacco leaves,
a glass surrounded by warm water filled
with crystal clear brown liquid - enjoyment, not?)
"i'm standing on the edge of time
i walked away when love was mine
caught up in a world of uphill climbing
the tears are in my mind
and nothing is rhyming, oh mandy.
well you came and you gave without taking
but i sent you away, oh mandy"

7 December 2007

Rehab

leaves of wormwood and a shot of absinthe.
this is enjoyment, or is it?

4 December 2007

Few darned days

Friend: Haiix... Why? Why is happiness always gone?
Me: That's because we try too hard
Friend: Did i do anything wrong?
Me: ...
Friend: Tell me. Please, why is it so fucked up?
Me: No. Nobody did anything wrong.
It's just that nothing goes right.
That's why we're always in pursuit
Remember? The pursuit of happiness
Friend: Then tell me, why is it that everything
would go wrong and people love to find
something to blame?
Me: Cause it makes them happy that they aren't
at fault.
Friend: Haiix..

She's out there now, she has her own two feet
you know that it might be a facade.
but you still have to give yourself more time.
your god given apology will not save anything.
if losing this friend makes her happier,
then lose her. say your piece when you're ready
and let her decide what's next.

2 December 2007

Make it real

Something is missing.
something important.
(im sorry)
during the transitioin,
if ever anyone was at fault,
then the fault be the confused.
(i really am)
but the one whom hadn't kept
parting promises would also
be at fault.
(i love you)
friends she had claimed to be
now, stangers would do better.
what more could he provide?
only a sorry and true feelings
(just that im not ready for anything)
yes, he could blame everyone
but himself he too could blame
nothing is wrong in this world
'cept for humans and their misery.
(so i guess, this is goodbye)
his time is running out,
he needs some of it to get things done
but she couldnt give him a little more
he only wanted to let her choose,
she chose the distance.
(je t'aime)
now no one is being blamed here,
just a weighing of incidents.
and an explaination of a plot and
storyline of a probable hatred to come