So much time left for regret.

Does it ever occur to anyone,
that somehow we all have our own skeletons
and all it takes is that when something dies
bury it all up and celebrate its life.

if im gonna get to personal feelings,
which might be the first of which ive revealed
im absolutely shaking in fear right now,
for the people around me, for myself.

what confuses me the most is how
everytime something happens,
it gets pulled into a whole chain reaction,
like raining is not enough,
there must be typhoons.

regretting is inevitable,
facing mistakes, whether drugged,
intoxicated, or rash,
anything that constitutes to bad decisions.
will definately be a bitch.
what defines a person's character
is the ability or inability
to right the wrongs.

we as humans possess an ability
a capacity to think, filter and
make choices entirely out of free will.
it is inate, and simple, that everyone
can decide things for themselves,
so what makes a human drive
him/herself to desolation and suicide.

although it might be true that
one cannot live without embracing
suicide or crime. however,
it does not justify the need to
truely carry the act out,
that's what our vessels of
grey matter are for.

alcohol and/or drugs fogs up the mind,
the only reason one will consider
actually carrying out these insane
thoughts. i beseech anyone to never
never ever allow themselves a
chance to die.
any human no matter how discontented
should always remember what they
deeply desire. "i should want to live"

suicide,
if anything, it causes everyone around
who cares to break apart,
as long as a single person in any
closed group departs this godforsaken
world, the whole group will be dealt a
heavy blow, that causes the bonds formed
between them to be severly damaged.

nobody has to say goodbye prematurely
and nobody has the right to.
no matter how deep rooted your regrets are.
we all have to face some shit now or than,
but in the end, lift your head up,
tuck in your stomach and
strut like the warrior we all are.

we should live

Quote.

you know, being of this age. we often argue with our parents. but then sometimes, if we don't say what we want to say, im afraid, one day it'll be too late to admit we don't see eye to eye

"Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got

You say you just don't see it
He says it's perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defense

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts

So Don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you don't give up, and don't give in
You may just be O.K."

- Mike + the Mechanics

Plain, simple and forgotten

It is a pretty irrevocable fact that
everyone has their own secrets.
That truthful figure of ourselves
as humans of virtue we painted
is nothing more than a beautiful
lie we created to give us
that comfort that we so long for
in truth. Where we would be
able to bask in the light.

Unfortunately, the hypocrite
that we as humans have the
capacity to cultivate in ourselves
forces us to do some - things -
the most basic is to put on
a new mask, the mask that which
abolishes all the responsibility to
explain our actions even to ourselves.

for example, when a
person does something against his
desires for the pleasure or
acceptance of another, he
would then automatically
explain it as an act of loyalty.
but he forgets to be loyal
to his heart.

slowly, inch by inch,
seconds over seconds,
this person will begin to lose
himself in all his own web of lies
but for how long?
a web is made by thin
connecting lines and all it takes
is just some gale and it might
all end up all gone with the wind.

a person may be able to live in
this web for days, weeks, months
or even years before it starts
to tear apart.
while it might be true that he can
try to patch it up or add more layers
but it is but only a matter of time.
before a wind that will be much too
powerful comes along and disintegrates
the entire web, leaving him
to question his own truth again.

When the person finally figures
that he has forgotten himself
and simply cannot turn back time
he knows he has to move on.
but yet, he has lost too many things.
and most importantly, he has lost
the last 4 years.

will he continue to live in this
artificial happiness he made for himself
to think that he is satisfied as long as
he knows, that one person he
wanted acceptance from
is contented with his results and
the meaningless fruits of labour
he would painfully and dutifully
reap. or will he leave?

will i live this lie?

"and above all else, be truthful to thine ownself"

Stupidity

when for the whole of my sad existence
i've been trying to be "myself"
i took so long to stop and notice:
staring at me, the self has became
a reflection of other's expectations.
what's the worst part of it all is that
this is an incomplete reflection,
i have failed to live in the dreams
that others wanted to live..
i have failed my mom.

the stupid thing is that,
parents always force their kids to
finish their unfinished dreams,
claiming it's "for the kids' good"..
what the hell is that?
some lousy excuse....

now many parents wonder why
their kids lie to them?
if they ever want to blame anyone,
blame the media,
blame education, blame superiors
or whatever, that we have started
formulating our own ideals
and to destroy the hopes of these
is akin to tearing up our hearts.
much like the effects of our disobediance
to them.

yes. I BLAME SOCIETY
I BLAME EDUCATION
and the sole purpose of its existance,
IDUSTRIALISATION
and its fucking growing demands..
we are bred and born to learn, my ass.
its the rich and powerful
who needed workers...
that's the reason why educational
institutions came about..
and the few people who
manage to break out of the
cycle of poverty,
its not thanks to education
its thanks to 'heart',
the passion to stop conforming..
that's how they "made it"....
not by studying. shitheads



*sorry. this is just my opinion.

It's time for men to speak.

First of all, I'd like people to stop wondering
why the hell the title is '...for men...' instead of
'...for women...' the answer is simple, just read on.
I'm pretty confident that some people out there
already know why but are too lazy to speak up.

I understand that i might have already written
something about this topic; about how women
should stop whining and begging for equality
like their pathetic lives hold nothing
more to be squabbling with men about.

BUT

I do happen to have more to say.
Women who have so sold themselves to the
theories of feminism are clueless.
Women who sell ideas of feminism are
oblivious to the differences between men and women
and are most likely to be smelly, smoking, alcoholic
and as maddox says, they have "unshaven armpits."
Well, they arent so bad, they just need education.

Let me add that feminism, is a ----ing LIE.
If you need to know, there is no such thing as
chauvinism either. Also, "Lesbian" is a term
created by incoherent women who know
nothing about themselves nor men in fact, all of the
above mentioned terms are invented by them.

I'm sick of all these bullshit.
Women keep complaining about how they are treated.
What about guys? Now, women know about their
stupid wrong "rights" and are abusing it.
While guys who so love their women are losing
every single bit of their pride to let women have their ways!
It's time for men to speak! My fellow civillised people,
let me reach out to you. Think back and look through
history, do men really owe women that much?

Back when women were not educated,
families stuck together due to dependence.
But no, we had to change that, alright.
We did so with not much complaints,
and they were educated and given a chance.
Fastforward till today, ignoring everything else
that men have been trying to compromise,
women are still complaining, going
on and on about non-existant discrimination
on the fairer sex! Now, thanks to the
endless complaints, the recession has
affectted guys much worse than girls.
If you dumb whores still think it's due
to your efforts, let me tell you this,
for a fact, it is because you keep complaining!
and the bosses don't want to have to
deal with your unfounded accusations,
not one or two but
hundreds of them...
if you dont get what you want,
you keep going at it dont you?

now don't me wrong. that's not the end.
i have enough to fill up a book with
but i'll stop for today and you can reflect on it.
im sorry if this affects anyone badly.
Its just my thoughts, my opinion.
but i still think. girls, you might
take this as a differing set of thoughts
and try to reconsider ever listening to feminists

Man

it was said "All the world's a stage;
and all men and women, merely players"
and if it were true, then every part of our
very meaningless lives are just filled
with bits and pieces of our different faces.

that then brings us to hypocrisy.
how many of us truly mean what we say?
Humans can never be the same,
we all change, to fit into the situation
that's survival instinct.
and should we accidently bump
into situations that actually require sacrifice,
most of the time, it isn't gonna be oneself
that will be put on the sacrificial alter.

we're going through, in my opinion,
phases, different acts and scenes hold different
details and characters.
and thus, we react differently.
but it never is truely what we want to say.
is it?

then, i was recently told
"you can never expect things to bend your way"
i took the liberty to behave as i always thought i should
i rebutted quite impulsively.
"then one day it will."

think about it, im non-conformist.
i never believed in rules that cannot bend.
of course i must admit, i have to pay the price.
when it comes down to the real deal,
there're too many people who just conform,
to me, weaklings, who don't like what they're in for
but will follow suit just to get past life.

is that what people are?
the only person who's true to himself/herself
is the person who set the rules.
i'm not going to set my life to meaningless
rules and regulations. no, not me.
and im urging people to join me in my ideals
to once again listen to themselves.
and do what they think is right.

if we keep sticking to orders,
we stick to routines. and yes.
the analogy of
"the van named routine"
it might be comfortable;
you're never going to be ahead.
think for yourself and decide.
if you're even on this blog,
then something has brought you here.

aim to succeed, not to survive.
for we only have this one life,
don't live in the shadows of others
and end up dying like you've never lived